relleaine's Blog

Time to Die Time to die.


Are you ready

To die?


Want it fast

Or you want it slow


Knife through

The chest


Or would

Pills do?


Cement block

Tied tight


Jump off that

Bridge


Down you fall

Into the water


Drown, drown

Drowning


Rope round

Your neck


Tied to

The noose


Hang inches

Above the ground


Hands strangling

Suffocating you


Air running, running

Just ran out.


Get in that car

And drive


Swerve, go crazy

Here comes the cliff


Gun,

Placed in hand


Blow, blow, blowing

Your brains out


So how would

You like to die


Fast or

Slow


Pain or

No?


So are you

Ready?


Because it’s

Time to die.

-Relle Aine 05.25.09

Wow that was really depressing hahas okay then.


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Why?
The autumn breeze drifts away

As I sit chilled and cold
The branches are leaving
And in there place is snow

Which is neither new nor old
The memory from an autumn day
Beneath my feet the cold

My breath is chilled
My mind unwilled
My life in a tricky hold

What shall I do
What shall I say
As winter comes this way

The winter breeze,
That shakes my knees,
My heart as cold as ice,

I turn around,
For something new,
To hush me of my cries,

I look at the settling snow
And wave my  good byes,
For tomorrow all is lost,

As I look at the cold, cold snow
I scream out a simple question
And the question is, Why?

-Relle Aine 08.20.08

Okay then.. hahas

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Burn baby burn



Fly it down

Fly it high



Down in the ocean

Up in the sky



Let loose the rage

The sadness and all



Maybe honey one day

is what they always fucking say



Too ugly to be loved

Too in pain to care why



Anger spills out

Mind wants me to die



I hate it

Over and over again



Learning who you are

Learning what I am



Unloved, untouched, unclean

What am I



A piece of shit

Like always



I should get the fuck over it

Stop crying such wasteful tears



Stop living in fear

Maybe I should



Fucking die

One step over



The edge

No way



To turn back

Fuck life



Fuck living

Fuck me.



No wait I've already done it for you

Fucked myself over



No going back

Ugly as can be



Hate myself

Hate me



-Relle Aine 10.30.09

Ouch... that's when I was going through a depressy stage. Sigh.

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Madness is a Moment

My mind screams
My body jerks wildly

My whole world combusts
Flames flicker then die

I see black eyes
I feel a cold chill

I taste a bitter flavor
I hear a frightening howl

Why does my
Mind resist

The urge
To cut

The feeling
Of loneliness

The chill
Of my thoughts

Then in a second
It vanishes

And I see
The world

As it really
Truly is.

At least

My Madness is
Only for the moment.

-Relle Aine 1.22.09

Mmkay then.

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If I only had a window,

If I only had a window,
I’d sit there day and night,
I’d see the tears of glory,
I’d feel the love of light,

If I only had a window,
The morning would call on me,
No need for lamps and candles,
No need for that you see,

If I only had a window,
I could see clouds floating by,
And the glorious sun,
Much brighter than I,

But I don’t have a window,
And for that I cry,
Because I have no clue,
When time passes by.

-Relle Aine 11.27.07

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Okay I think that's all I'll put for now :P hahahs mmkay then.

Push it under a rug. My philosophy for most things. I think my rug has become too lumpy to walk on and to continue on unnoticed.